TTC

So, DH and I have talked it over and it is official, we've decided to make the leap and start trying for our second child! I'm so excited, I have had baby fever since Abigail turned 1. DH didn't come home from his deployment for another few months, so I tried to suppress it. I thought once he did get home, I would be against having another baby so quickly. Boy was I wrong! The first few weeks were fine, then we had a slipup. Of course, that got my hopes up and it was all downhill from there. I couldn't help but to feel anxious for another baby. It's just natural, IMO, to want another child, especially once you realize your little one is growing up. We had made the initial decision to wait, not just because DH had just gotten home, but also because DH was getting out of the military soon. In January, we left North Carolina to come back to Michigan and he was officially out in February. We knew that everything from there was going to be up in the air, and we didn't want the added pressure of a new baby in the near future, to add to it.
I was so happy that DH recently found a job, but still unsure how he felt about trying. I knew I will be ovulating soon, so I decided it was time to have "the talk". I explained my feelings and was so glad to hear him say that he understood and he also thought we should start trying now. Phew! It has been a bumpy road, we are going through some very new things right now, but this puts a bright spot into the future. I am so excited to become a mother again, and I'm excited for DH to experience this pregnancy and baby, in a way he didn't get to with Abigail. He was gone some of the pregnancy, and I was very glad he was home for her birth. He left again when she was about 8 weeks old for a 14-month tour in Iraq. It was hard that he was only able to experience her growing up through pictures and video. We were fortunate to have that, but it still was not the same. I want him to come home from work to see our child's first smile or hear that first giggle. I want him to be able to rock his child to sleep and have that attachment and interaction with him or her, that he didn't get before. Abigail became very attached to me, since I was her primary parent, and that made it hard when he came home. He's been home for over 4 months now, and she still is having difficulties. She will not take her nighttime bath or shower without me there. Last night she screamed the entire time. She also still has a hard time letting DH rock her to sleep, she just wants to nurse to sleep. If I leave and DH is home with her, she usually throws a fit because I am gone. I guess I was hoping the transition would be smoother than this, especially after a few months.
Enough with my rambling though, I am so glad to officially share my exciting news!