Today marks Abigail's 4th day without a nap. I hate when she does this! I gets so fustrating, especially when the late afternoon comes around and she is so tired, no one can stand her. It's not so much that she resists a nap. She now recognizes when she is tired and will grab me and pull me into her room, saying "night, night". She then nurses and falls fast asleep...until I move. Then she is wide awake and ready to go again. She goes through these phases every few months, this one impaticular, several times this past winter. I've tried everything, I just have no idea what the answer is.
Patience: something I don't have. Trying to concieve has only tested that. I have to admit, it's better this time around, because I keep busy and don't obsess over what's going on. I'm not 7 DPO (days past ovulation). With Abigail, my temperature rose at 10 DPO, which is how I knew I was pregnant. My chart went triphasic (my temp rose a 3rd time, to indicate implantation), so I took a test and it was positive! A faint positive, but positive none-the-less. I am hoping when (staying optomistic here) I get pregnant this time, the same thing will happen. I'm trying not to obsess over what is going on. I have what I think could be "signs", but I don't want to admit it, so I don't jinx myself. I'm hoping in the next few days I'll either get a temp rise or I won't, and I'll know for sure. I still have almost a week before my period is due, so I just have to wait it out...
Something else I need some patience for, the job hunt. DH is off to another interview tomorrow. He left this afternoon, and I'll be honest, it will be nice to be home alone for these few days. I'm excited, but trying not to get my hopes up too much. It's a second interview, so this is it, either her gets the job or he doesn't. The job conference we went to last weekend turned out 5 interviews and 4 of them were interested in a 2nd interview! This is the first of those 4, but also our top pick, because it has an opening in Michigan, so we wouldn't have to move far. It does come with a catch though, it's 3 months of training in another state :/ It's a disadvantage, because he would be gone 3 months, although he could get home on weekends and we could visit him there. It's an advantage because it would give us 3 months to move. Either way, he still has the job here to fall back on, he just hasn't started it yet. Hopefully this week or next, it will be nice to have a decent paycheck coming in again! I just hope everything turns out as it should!
Monday, March 24, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Month 1
Well, this is officially our first month of TTC. (TMI ahead) I should be ovulating anyday now, and DH and I are doing what we can to be sure we give it a fair chance (if you catch my drift, lol). DH had a job conference in Chicago this weekend and I decided to come along, or I should say we, because Abigail is here too. I'll be honest, I'm excited to ovulate, weird huh? It's like I've accomplished something even though I have no power over it. Then it's onto the 2 week wait, which will be torture. When we had our slipups a few months ago, I was fine the first week. Then I started to watch my temps a little closer and be aware of signs of implantation. Honestly, there are times I wish I didn't learn all of this stuff. It's great to be aware of what is going on with my body, but times that I wish I didn't know because it makes me even more anxious.
Chicago is nice, although we're not in the downtown area. It's still busy, though, and unfortunately, most of the jobs he is interviewing for are in the Chicago area. I like having things close for the convience of it, but I hate being too cramped. I want a house with a little bit of a yard, so Abby can play. I don't want to live on a busy street or drive down an 8-lane highway to get to the grocery store. I definitely like the small town atmosphere better. I guess this job conference is basically the first interview. He'll be interviewing with 9 companies tomorrow and from there, they will decide if they want him for a second interview, then a job offer, if they choose. DH does have a job waiting at home for him, which he was offered last week. It's not a great paying job, but it makes ends meet. He's already started the hiring process and should actually start it in the next few weeks. That's great, because then we have an actual paycheck coming in, but bad, becuase he will have to work any interviews around the job. I am still having my doubts, because I'm not sure if I want to move. We just got back a month and a half ago, and I want to settle in somewhere. I also am hesitant to leave my family, it's nice to have them so close. Chicago is only 4 hours away, which isn't bad at all, but still far enough. It's not exactly just a day trip for anyone.
Abigail is sleeping well so far. She slept through the night last night (thanks to the hotel providing actual cribs and not pack'n'plays, she sleeps horrible in those) and just took a 2 1/2 hour nap, woohoo! I think we might go explore the area for something to do, and there is a mall acorss the street. I promised DH I would have dinner waiting when he got done at 6 and we're both hoping for pizza tonight. We have had to really cut back because of our lack of money, and we only used to go out to eat once a week as it was. It's such a treat to go out more than once in a week, we don't know what do with ourselves, lol
Chicago is nice, although we're not in the downtown area. It's still busy, though, and unfortunately, most of the jobs he is interviewing for are in the Chicago area. I like having things close for the convience of it, but I hate being too cramped. I want a house with a little bit of a yard, so Abby can play. I don't want to live on a busy street or drive down an 8-lane highway to get to the grocery store. I definitely like the small town atmosphere better. I guess this job conference is basically the first interview. He'll be interviewing with 9 companies tomorrow and from there, they will decide if they want him for a second interview, then a job offer, if they choose. DH does have a job waiting at home for him, which he was offered last week. It's not a great paying job, but it makes ends meet. He's already started the hiring process and should actually start it in the next few weeks. That's great, because then we have an actual paycheck coming in, but bad, becuase he will have to work any interviews around the job. I am still having my doubts, because I'm not sure if I want to move. We just got back a month and a half ago, and I want to settle in somewhere. I also am hesitant to leave my family, it's nice to have them so close. Chicago is only 4 hours away, which isn't bad at all, but still far enough. It's not exactly just a day trip for anyone.
Abigail is sleeping well so far. She slept through the night last night (thanks to the hotel providing actual cribs and not pack'n'plays, she sleeps horrible in those) and just took a 2 1/2 hour nap, woohoo! I think we might go explore the area for something to do, and there is a mall acorss the street. I promised DH I would have dinner waiting when he got done at 6 and we're both hoping for pizza tonight. We have had to really cut back because of our lack of money, and we only used to go out to eat once a week as it was. It's such a treat to go out more than once in a week, we don't know what do with ourselves, lol
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Mischief!
Abigail is such a mischief maker this morning! Ughhh! She started by grabbing the bag of grapes (already off the stems and washed, so easily dumpable and wet) and dumped them everywhere. A few minutes later, I sat her down for breakfast and left to get my coffee. When I came back, she's scooping her yogurt onto the table, making a huge mess. Apparently, she had no interest in eating. So she gets down, and wanders off. Next thing I know, I hear a huge crash. I find the bag of M&Ms I forgot to put away last night, all over the living room floor. She wanted one, so she undid the bag, and dumped them. I thought that it couldn't get worse... Just a few minutes ago, I saw her grab my handheld mixer from the cupboard. No big deal, right? The beaters are in the drawer and what can she possibly do with it? Who knew she actually knew how to plug it in and turn it on! I guess you should never underestimate a toddler! I suppose I need to be on my guard today, who knows what she's going to do next!
TTC
So, DH and I have talked it over and it is official, we've decided to make the leap and start trying for our second child! I'm so excited, I have had baby fever since Abigail turned 1. DH didn't come home from his deployment for another few months, so I tried to suppress it. I thought once he did get home, I would be against having another baby so quickly. Boy was I wrong! The first few weeks were fine, then we had a slipup. Of course, that got my hopes up and it was all downhill from there. I couldn't help but to feel anxious for another baby. It's just natural, IMO, to want another child, especially once you realize your little one is growing up. We had made the initial decision to wait, not just because DH had just gotten home, but also because DH was getting out of the military soon. In January, we left North Carolina to come back to Michigan and he was officially out in February. We knew that everything from there was going to be up in the air, and we didn't want the added pressure of a new baby in the near future, to add to it.
I was so happy that DH recently found a job, but still unsure how he felt about trying. I knew I will be ovulating soon, so I decided it was time to have "the talk". I explained my feelings and was so glad to hear him say that he understood and he also thought we should start trying now. Phew! It has been a bumpy road, we are going through some very new things right now, but this puts a bright spot into the future. I am so excited to become a mother again, and I'm excited for DH to experience this pregnancy and baby, in a way he didn't get to with Abigail. He was gone some of the pregnancy, and I was very glad he was home for her birth. He left again when she was about 8 weeks old for a 14-month tour in Iraq. It was hard that he was only able to experience her growing up through pictures and video. We were fortunate to have that, but it still was not the same. I want him to come home from work to see our child's first smile or hear that first giggle. I want him to be able to rock his child to sleep and have that attachment and interaction with him or her, that he didn't get before. Abigail became very attached to me, since I was her primary parent, and that made it hard when he came home. He's been home for over 4 months now, and she still is having difficulties. She will not take her nighttime bath or shower without me there. Last night she screamed the entire time. She also still has a hard time letting DH rock her to sleep, she just wants to nurse to sleep. If I leave and DH is home with her, she usually throws a fit because I am gone. I guess I was hoping the transition would be smoother than this, especially after a few months.
Enough with my rambling though, I am so glad to officially share my exciting news!
I was so happy that DH recently found a job, but still unsure how he felt about trying. I knew I will be ovulating soon, so I decided it was time to have "the talk". I explained my feelings and was so glad to hear him say that he understood and he also thought we should start trying now. Phew! It has been a bumpy road, we are going through some very new things right now, but this puts a bright spot into the future. I am so excited to become a mother again, and I'm excited for DH to experience this pregnancy and baby, in a way he didn't get to with Abigail. He was gone some of the pregnancy, and I was very glad he was home for her birth. He left again when she was about 8 weeks old for a 14-month tour in Iraq. It was hard that he was only able to experience her growing up through pictures and video. We were fortunate to have that, but it still was not the same. I want him to come home from work to see our child's first smile or hear that first giggle. I want him to be able to rock his child to sleep and have that attachment and interaction with him or her, that he didn't get before. Abigail became very attached to me, since I was her primary parent, and that made it hard when he came home. He's been home for over 4 months now, and she still is having difficulties. She will not take her nighttime bath or shower without me there. Last night she screamed the entire time. She also still has a hard time letting DH rock her to sleep, she just wants to nurse to sleep. If I leave and DH is home with her, she usually throws a fit because I am gone. I guess I was hoping the transition would be smoother than this, especially after a few months.
Enough with my rambling though, I am so glad to officially share my exciting news!
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