I guess updating my blog isn't as easy when I'm typing one-handed all the time!
The last few weeks have passed, and Anna is growing as every baby does. She's becoming more alert and having more happy/content periods throughout the day. She smiles and coo's back and me and it just melts my heart! I'm trying to savor every moment, because I think back to Abigail, and I barely remember all of this.
Abby seems to be feeling left out more lately. She is clinging to me more and requesting me for bathtime and bedtime. It's hard, because I'm not always available to do it, when I'm nursing Anna. I also need a bit of a break on days that DH is at work. I'm with them 24 hours a day without a break most days, so I appreciate when I can take just one or the other and spend some one-on-one time. I'm still finding it's hard mentally, to balance both girls. How do I split my attention between them equally without feeling guilty? Anna is so dependent on me and yet, I used to be able to devote all of my time to Abby. I feel guilty when I ignore one to pay attention to the other. It must get easier, because so many people go on to have more than 2 children!
In other news, my mother-in-law is coming to visit in just over a week! She hasn't met Anna yet, so it will be exciting to have her around for a few days.
On a final note, I just have to say - I can't wait for spring! I'm starting to go nuts being couped up inside the house everyday. I just want to get out in the sun, and breathe some fresh air!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Mom of 2
Life has been a little crazy the past few weeks. Adjusting to having a newborn again is...well, an adjustment. It's not quite as dramatic as it was when Abigail was born. Breastfeeding has been going very smoothly and Anna seems to sleep more and eat less than Abigail did. I think just knowing what to expect helps though. It's easier to adjust to having a baby when you aren't so overwhelmed by the concept of just having a newborn.
I still have found myself getting overwhelmed sometimes, especially when I am at home alone and trying to balance the needs of a toddler and newborn. I have heard people say that after this, adding another child is nothing, but I don't know. I have gone from possibly wanting another one a month ago, to being not so sure. The newborn days have made me question whether I want to do this again. I don't do well with a lack of sleep and chaos. It's hard to go from an independent toddler to a completely dependent on me newborn. I know in the next month or two it will get easier and the hardest of it is pretty much over with now that we are all settled in. Now it's just a matter of Anna getting bigger, developing and getting into a daily routine that we can all work with. Unfortunately, she's not quite as portable as I was hoping, maybe some of my fault, and some of just being a newborn. She was an easy baby the first 10 days or so, eating and sleeping. Then she started getting fussy and now if she isn't eating or sleeping, she's crying or fussing. At least I seem to get 2-3 naps from her during the day and at least a 2-3 hour stretch at night, sometimes up to 5 hours.
It still seems strange to think that I'm actually a mom of 2 children. I'm having a hard time spending so much less time with Abigail when I'm used to being able to give her my full time and attention. It's true that your love just divides when you have another child, and you love the new one as much as your first. I have to admit that there are times I like one child over the other though, lol
Abigail is vying for my attention as I type this and I'm having a hard time concentrating on what I want to write, so I might as well wrap it up. More ramblings to come I'm sure!
I still have found myself getting overwhelmed sometimes, especially when I am at home alone and trying to balance the needs of a toddler and newborn. I have heard people say that after this, adding another child is nothing, but I don't know. I have gone from possibly wanting another one a month ago, to being not so sure. The newborn days have made me question whether I want to do this again. I don't do well with a lack of sleep and chaos. It's hard to go from an independent toddler to a completely dependent on me newborn. I know in the next month or two it will get easier and the hardest of it is pretty much over with now that we are all settled in. Now it's just a matter of Anna getting bigger, developing and getting into a daily routine that we can all work with. Unfortunately, she's not quite as portable as I was hoping, maybe some of my fault, and some of just being a newborn. She was an easy baby the first 10 days or so, eating and sleeping. Then she started getting fussy and now if she isn't eating or sleeping, she's crying or fussing. At least I seem to get 2-3 naps from her during the day and at least a 2-3 hour stretch at night, sometimes up to 5 hours.
It still seems strange to think that I'm actually a mom of 2 children. I'm having a hard time spending so much less time with Abigail when I'm used to being able to give her my full time and attention. It's true that your love just divides when you have another child, and you love the new one as much as your first. I have to admit that there are times I like one child over the other though, lol
Abigail is vying for my attention as I type this and I'm having a hard time concentrating on what I want to write, so I might as well wrap it up. More ramblings to come I'm sure!
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